I really need some guidance on something I can't keep in. It involves my love life so if you don't want to hear it then don't read.

Way back in July I went to a convention in Atlanta with my friend, Tear-chan, and there was this guy I met there cosplaying as a ninja. He saw me in my bondage costume and my sign saying "Will Yaoi With Hot Peoples for Free" and we started talking: just talking. While several other GIRLS kept jerking me around, pulling on my leech and trying to freaking rape me, he just treated me like a normal person.
Later I found out he was bi and he told me I was cute...and he would have kissed me but he was already dating someone else. When I left, we swapped e-mails and chatted every now and then through that.
Then one day in September he said he fixed his phone and so we swapped numbers and began texting like crazy. Then we started talking. Then he told that he was single and one thing lead to another and by the time the first call had ended we had made "promises" to each other for the next con coming in a few DAYS.
About a week went by and after so much talking I began falling for him so I told him and that "I wasn't going to let myself be used or use him like that." And that he needed to hurry up and decide if he will return the same feelings. (THIS WAS ALL STILL IN SEPTEMBER)
He said he wasn't ready and so I gave him time. Well almost two mouths have passed ad he is still saying he can't decide between me (who waited for him and was always honest with him ) and he ex girlfriend (who left him in the first place).
He tells me he loves me and he cares but it gets harder to believe him.
I'm screaming inside every time I look at his picture on my phone and I bleed inside every time he tells me he loves me. I shatter every time I hear his voice and my heart becomes twisted and and locked every time I have to stop myself from saying the same. The nwhen I finally say it...it only hurts more.
He kills me inside...but I love him.
Help me....